Zombie Bree

Zombie Bree needs a hug

Brains….

I’m coming for your brain

Smart Zombie Bree

Disney’s California Adventure – Paradise Pier

Happiness surrounds me

I am surrounded by love, happiness, light and smiles. I cannot explain in words how happy I feel and how blessed I am with life. I feel like I have finally found where I fit with love. I couldn’t have asked for more. I have everything I need. I have a good job that allows me to pay my bills and have some play/saving money. I am working towards completion of my college degree. I have my Ginger (for now). I have a roof over my head. I have found the love of my life, the one person I have been waiting for.

I just need to go through my stuff and get rid of those items that I no longer need and everything will be great. I am thinking of hiring someone to help me go through all of my stuff to determine what I need to keep and what I can get rid of. Anyone want to help me out???

I can’t wait for all the new stages to come in my life. I feel I am right on track to be where I want to be. Contentment is within reach and not just an idea in my head. My over-thinking and over-analyzing is not a problem anymore, but a welcome addition to my future.

One Month Anniversary

Well it has been a month already. I am still swimming up in the clouds with a smile upon my face. I was able to cook him dinner for the first time and he even liked it. The bad part is that I was not able to wash the dishes as well.

I am loving this new happiness high I have found. I am truly blessed to have found my soulmate. We have been so close to each other for a long time and yet now was the time that we finally met. 🙂 We must be ready for  and  able to handle each other now. 🙂

I couldn’t be happier… than I have been this past month. Thank You soooo much my love!!!

Different types of love

I believe that you can love more than person at a time. I also believe that you do not love people the same. I still have feelings for all of my past boyfriends and that is not the same as the love I feel today. I love my family and my friends but it is not romantic or intimate love.

We grow and we learn through loving other people. I think how you treat other people says a lot about who you are. I always put those close to me in front of my own needs/desires. This may not be a good thing, but it is part of who I am.

Somedays I feel so full of love that I swear I must burst at the seems. Other days I struggle to find the love around me. Luckily I have more days in the former category.

Emotional Struggles

I have struggled in the past with trying to find someone who understands me, loves me, desires me, likes me, and wants to be with me. I have struggled with lowering my expectations of a partner in order to not be alone. I had begun to resign myself to the thought that I was not going to find someone who is my equal.

I know this relationship is new and still young. It feels more comfortable than anything else I have ever known. I am back to being a teenager; learning and growing with another person. I have no walls up. I am not hiding from him. I am being myself and letting everything all hang out (so to speak).

I have decided that I will give myself whole heartedly to my new love, trusting in him completely. He will probably hurt me as I will probably hurt him; since we are both human. I am hoping that none of the hurt is purposeful or spiteful.

I am exicted about the present and ever hopeful of what the future will bring us. Back to being 16 years old and riding high on love and life. 🙂

Thank you, my love!

New Love

Happiness is life,

Life is love.

Smiles upon my face are infinite,

Your love for me ignites my soul.

Demons from my past,

Put themselves to rest.

Startled by this rush of strong fulfilling emotions,

I was sure this was gone forever.

Unknowingly you have awakened me,

From a slumber I did not know I was in.

For now I am caught in a whirlwind of lovely emotions,

Contented to explore all of this new terrain.

I want to shout out my feelings for all the world to hear,

Showing you off to everyone I know.

My turn for a “trophy”,

Somehow you are mine to have and to hold.

I can feel the walls have been torn down,

I must share this new-found heart filling love.

Forever Love

If I loved you once, I will always love you. My love may fade but it will never go away. I choose not to hate. I choose to forgive. I choose to love. All those intimate moments that we shared will always be held as treasured memories in my heart and soul. That precious bond will always be there between us.

From my first love to my current love.. you are forever etched on my heart. Alive or Dead… I will always have you in my thoughts. I see things that remind me of you and make me smile. Memories of our past come back to me in a rush of heat, smiles and laughter. I remember the good times and ignore the bad times. I know we shall never be like that again and that we have all changed, but I cherish who you were in those moments along with who I was.