How do I get back to the days when I was happy? I need to find that happy-go-lucky person that I used to be. I feel constantly stuck in a rut, and I am tired of seeing people that do nothing get everything they desire. How can people sit idle and not work? I am burnt out on working too many hours. I am also burnt out on school, yet I can’t proceed forward without finishing it.
I seem to constantly get myself into relationships with people that are not productive members of society for one reason or another. Why must I always settle? Do I really feel that I don’t deserve anymore than that? Once I get in a relationship why must it be so hard for me to just say “You are no longer making me happy, I must move on”? I need to grow a pair and just state how I feel and that I am tired of being lonely.
What is the difference between a friend and a partner? Is it sex? Is it the amount of time you spend together? Is it that you would do anything for that person?
Just one of THOSE days today. Seem to be having more and more of them.
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