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June 21, 2017

Life Changes

Filed under: General Life Updates — slimpickins @ 11:24 am

My life is about to change dramatically and I don’t know if I cam ready for it but it is necessary. I hope that I will keep my friends during this change, but I am prepared for the loss of some of them. Sometimes we need to just buck up and do things for ourselves and our own well being. I keep putting mine on the backburner for someone else.. but now I will take a step forward into the new world that awaits me.

June 14, 2017

Universe is yelling at me

Filed under: General Life Updates — slimpickins @ 3:55 pm

That awkward moment when the universe starts yelling at you to make a change. You can deny it as long as you want to but the universe will always get it’s way. You meet people at the certain times for certain reasons.

The universe is trying to help me help myself.. and I am going to give in and listen. I will welcome in the happiness and changes that are coming forth shortly. Thank you for yelling at me Universe, sometimes I am hard of hearing.

May 30, 2017

To Marry or not to Marry…

Filed under: Emotional Stuffs — slimpickins @ 7:13 am

One question you should never ask yourself after 6 months to a year of dating is “If they were to ask me to marry them what would I say?” After say 6 months to a year you should know if you want to spend the rest of your live with that person or not. From my experience; if you aren’t sure the answer is “NO”.

It is difficult when you love someone but you know you do not want to marry them. I have and do struggle with this a lot. I am getting to the point to finally just walk away.

I hope to keep them as my friend but you never know how they will react to your insight that you are no longer in love with them or that you don’t see yourself marrying them. I can’t imagine it going over well, but I have been able to stay friends with those that I have dated in the past so who knows.

I am not a horrible person because I don’t want to marry you. I am not a horrible person because I want to find that one person I am meant to be with and marry them. I thought that was you, but I know now that is not you.

I am not a horrible person… Being true to myself is not being mean or horrible.

July 18, 2016

Updated Photos..

Filed under: Photo Journal — slimpickins @ 1:28 pm

Today is my 11th Divorciary and I am soooo excited…

 

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December 29, 2015

Re-learning to Love

Filed under: Emotional Stuffs, General Stuff — Tags: , , — slimpickins @ 1:22 pm

Re-learning to Love – 12/29/2015

I feel you with me, wherever I go.

You are beside me, reminding me to live my life.

I feel your lips upon my lips.

I taste you for hours after we have kissed.

I fall into your arms and breathe in your scent.

My skin tingles, where you have caressed it.

My breathing becomes deeper, so that I can get closer to you and take more of you inside.

The passion I feel for you ignites a fire with each kiss.

My heart aches when you block me from your life.

My brain tries to fool me into deceptions, but I only need to look deep into your eyes to see the lies.

I run as fast as I can into those lies hoping to slay them before they can reach too deep and wreak too much havoc.

I know the lies have done some damage, but I am quick to try to repair it. Hoping and praying that no lasting damage has been done to us.

I could stare into your loving eyes for hours and never tire.

I stare at your face to memorize the lines, so that I can conjure you in my dreams.

I want everything and nothing at all. I only want you.

I desire you, I need you, I yearn for you to be close, so I can cherish you.

My greatest fear is that after having you, I would lose you forever.

Now that I have had you in my life, I do not want to go on without you.

You make me want to be a better person.

You make me want to run head long into the future with you; without a plan only a dream.

I will fight for you.

I will fight for me.

I will fight for us.

You have me, as much of me as I can give you.

Re-learning to open my broken heart and put the pieces back together.

Re-learning passion, which I thought had long ago been distinguished.

Re-learning carnal desires, which I was sure I would never experience again.

I give more of myself to you every day as I fall deeper and deeper.

I had no idea that I could get this lost in someone, again.

This is so new to me, I am learning from you, re-learning to love.

Family Photo with the Girls 2015

Filed under: Photo Journal — slimpickins @ 1:02 pm

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Searching…

Filed under: General Stuff — Tags: , — slimpickins @ 12:52 pm

I do not search for love, for I am already loved.

I do not search for lust, for lust can be deceiving.

I do not search for sex, for sex is easy to find.

I do not search for completion, for I am already complete.

 

I search for humor, as I crave laughter.

I search for fun, as I like to smile and enjoy life.

I search for intelligence, as deep conversation is food for the soul.

I search for creativity, as art is necessary in life.

I search for a companion, as I want to share life experiences.

I search for a good heart, as helping others is a necessity.

I search for a soul mate, as I am ready to bind my soul for eternity.

June 10, 2015

Tired of waiting

Filed under: Emotional Stuffs — slimpickins @ 1:37 pm

I wait for you and you are always too busy. I sit around and just wait and wait and wait for you and yet you never come to see me.

I get tired of waiting and I start doing and then you get upset with me for not waiting for you and always being busy.

You can’t have it both ways. Either you get to see me or you don’t; but I refuse to wait around for you. I have a life and I will live it alone with you if that is your choice. All signs point to me living life alone without you in it. I am sad, crushed and heartbroken, but I am strong and know that it won’t last long and soon I will be back where I was before I met you but with a small portion of my heart and soul missing that you will always have.

April 17, 2015

Life Goals – Reupdated

Filed under: General Life Updates — slimpickins @ 10:30 pm

Here are my life goals:

1.Travel to Puerto Rico and meet Alexis and Boris

2.Go to all Disney Parks in the World at least once
3.Take a real cruise
4.Ride a Bull
5.Drive in a Demolition Derby
6.Learn how to drive a manual transmission
7.Learn how to ride a motorcycle
8.Visit Hawaii
9.Visit the Grand Canyon and walk the see-through bridge
10.Buy a house (on my own or with my love)
11.See Auschwitz
12.Own a Hearse

13. Travel to Germany and meet Ramona, Tom, Sage and Muffin.
14.Leave a meaningful mark on this world when I leave
15.Spend the rest of my days making the love of my life; feel happy, deserved and content
16.Make-out often
17.Learn to work on Motorcyles
18.Learn how to do more vehicle maintenance (routine stuff like suspension/struts, etc.)
19.Go to Northwest Trek
20.Go up the Space Needle
21.Go to the Kangaroo Farm
22.Travel More….
23.Get all my teeth fixed
24.Get more tattoos (full sleeves and back at least)
25.Take a ride in a hot air balloon
26.Pay off all of my school loan debt
27.See the Island of the Dolls in Mexico
28.Get a New Year’s Kiss
29.Visit Yellowstone
30.Visit Mt. Rushmore
31.Have more sex

Removed:
* Get engaged to the love of my life (Remove… not sure I want to get engaged or married anymore)
* Have a Bachelorette Party (Remove… not sure I want to get engaged or married anymore)
* Get married to the love of my life (Remove… not sure I want to get engaged or married anymore)
* Have a Honeymoon (Remove… not sure I want to get engaged or married anymore)
* Skydive (Completed… went on my first skydice from 13,000 FT 07/2014)

* Find another Charlie Horse (completed 2014)

* Do a motorcycle ride-along (completed 2014)
* Get my B.S. in Accounting (Completed 6/2014)

March 30, 2015

Bree pictures

Filed under: Photo Journal — slimpickins @ 9:18 am

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