Further away

I feel you pulling back or falling further away from me. I am just a ship passing you in the day/night. As things continue on this path, I feel that we are growing further and further away. I have tried everything that I know and nothing seems to make a hint of difference for longer than a day or so.

Please help me to not loose you. I don’t know what else to do. I guess I give you more space and hope for the best. Maybe that will work. Sigh, I just have no clue.

Sorry for being me

I am sorry for being me. I am sorry for wanting to have sex with you. I am sorry for wanting to make you smile.I am sorry for wanting to be there for you. I am sorry that your touch ignites my desires for you.

I am sorry that I have to pull back. I am sorry that I am a burden. I am sorry that I am a nag. I am sorry for being me.

Golden Rule is crap

So I have decided that the Golden Rule is crap. I treat people the way that I want to be treated and yet I still end up with the short end of the stick all the time. When do I get wooed? When do I get spoiled? When do I get taken out? When do I get pampered? When do you go out of your way to make my day special? When do I not have to work my arse off for something?

I give up. I am not longer going to go out of my way for anyone.

Grumbly Grrrr

I am on new medication to try and curb my libido so that life is much more happy. It seems to be making me grumpy or at least irritable to everything going on around me.

I want to scream. I feel underappreciated. I feel underdesired. I feel under……

However I do not have any sexual desires at all, in fact I don’t even feel like being touched or kissed. I guess this will do for now.