Busyness…

So it’s been busy for me lately. Work has been hectic, with my co-worker going out on maternity leave one week early. I Had double the work to do, and that is crappy. But at least I am kept busy I guess.

Now why is it that when things start to look up and take a turn for the better…that then something crappy has to happen?

Looks like one of my past debts that was supposed to have been taken care of hasn’t been. It’s still showing on my credit report and what is worse, it was only $100 and it’s showing as $747. I called the company to see if they could shed some light on it, and they have it in their system as $100 and can’t explain the difference either.

Now I can’t get employed by Concur until this is taken care of. It will take at least 5 days to get this cleared up. The Customer Service Rep, is gonna try and have them send me something that states that the amount is wrong while they are looking into just why it is still showing at all.

 So it could be worse, but still… GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Stress Never Ends…

So… I had a decent Turkey Day. I spent actual Turkey Day in Salem with my grandma, uncle, aunt, cousins, mom and my brother. Then I spent the rest of the weekend at Seaside on the Oregon coast with my dad, his wife, my brother, my step-brother and my step-grandma. It was a pretty decent trip and I even got some Christmas Shopping.

I didn’t have e-mail access so I  had to wait until I got home to see what anyone had e-mailed me or anything like that. Wouldn’t you know it, I come home to a bad e-mail. My roommate, (who decided earlier that she wanted to move out in January instead of stay for the whole lease that ends in June) sent me an e-mail that she can’t afford to pay rent for December. Now mind you this give me 7 days to come up with the $480 that is her part of rent. She said that if I would cover it then she would pay me back over the next 3 weeks. She still owes me money from Septembers rent I borrowed her and she doesn’t want to pay utilities if she is not at the house (but still has things plugged in).

There is no way that I can come up with $480 extra in 7 days. So I advised her that unfortunately I cannot come up with that amount by the 1st of the month. Then I advised her that I had no choice but to ask her to either pay rent in full by the first or to move her stuff out by the 1st (so that I could have someone else take over the 7 months left on the lease as a roomie). I do have one option that might consider it, but not without full use of the room. (Now lets hope that they will take the offer, otherwise I have to borrow it from family. I hate doing that anyways, but it’s worse being so close to Christmas)

I guess I should feel bad since my roommate is my best friend, but she put herself in this position. If she wants to be treated like an adult then she needs to act like one and pay her fair share of the bills, and if she can’t then she needs to remove her stuff so that someone else can.

Sick Time??

So I am fairly upset right now. I am not feeling well at all, but I can’t afford to miss any days from work as with the temp agency I get no sick time. None what-so-ever. What is that?? I get penalized for being sick, like I can help it.

I was out sick yesterday with the flu. I still feel crappy but yet here I am at work again due to I need the money. Also I am in Oracle training, so that is important. But come on.. no sick days at all? That seems barbaric to me.

Lies, Lies, Lies…

I have no proof of this mind you, but it doesn’t matter if there is proof in this one occassion. This has happened to me in the past, unfortunately numberous times. Why is it that people feel they can lie to themselves or to others and no one will notice?? I am not sure in this particular case if it is I that am being lied to, or that this person is lying to themselves. It might even be a bit of both, actualy.

I am 28 yrs old, I have been married for 5 yrs and am now divorced. But why is it that people play games, lead people on and string them around like puppies on a leash??? I try to be upfront and honest with people from the get go. I say try becuase I am sure I have failed at this at least once in my life. I don’t act like I am wanting from a person that what I truly want.

Now I do know that I am an unconcious flirt, and that can make things confusing. But I am upfront with it… I let them know that I am touchy-feely, and if you are going to be just a friend then I won’t kiss you, give you long hugs,  touch you in certain areas or in certain ways. That should make it pretty straight forward I thought. All that I ask in return is that you do the same in return. If something bothers you, tell me. I may not be able to fix it, but I will darn near bend over backwards to try. Example: I am self concious about my teeth even though it’s genetic and I can’t stop/fix it without insurance and money. Please tell me if it bothers you, I feel that if it bothers me then it most likely bothers you too.

Okay back to why I am venting/ranting about lies. There is a person that I know whose actions say one thing and whose words say something completely different. Actions says yes and words say no.  I am so darn tired of being confused, that I am almost to the point to just say forget it all. No friendship, no relationship, no nothing.. do not pass go, do not collect $200.

When I try to talk to this person about it I feel like I get a “we have to let you go” speech. I get the you are a wonderful person, very desirable, have so much to offer someone, etc…  BUT I just don’t feel an emotional connection so lets get to know each other better as friends. WTF??? Don’t you need an emotional connection to be friends?? I mean I have at least some emotional connection to all of my friends, or they aren’t truly friends. I have put forth 90% of the effort to keep what friendship we have together. And yes a one way friendship is not what I desire.

So last night I did a lot of thinking about this, and I am done. I have washed my hands of putting forth any more effort than I have to. I will not go out of my way to see this person, or talk to them. If they want to stay in my life (since I am so wonderful and all) then they can make the effort from now on.

Slender/Petite Clothing

To me this is just craziness. I have been temping for this technology company with a business casual dress code. Now as this is a tech company this means slacks with a nice blouse, shirt or top. Well alas, I have two pairs of slacks as I have no problem wearing skirts/dresses to work.

So I was on a mission to find some plain black or grey slacks that would be of good quality, not to expensive and (most importantly) would fit. *Now keep in mind, this was 5 weeks ago that I first set upon this task*

So I went to a few local stores and the mall. I tried Macy’s, The Bon, Sears, JC Penney’s, Ross, Nordstroms, Marshalls, The Gap, Banana Republic, and Old Navy. All with no luck . So then I went down to try some stores in Oregon thinking I might have better or different luck down there. So I tried Limited, 20 Below, Rave, Target, Walmart, Ross, Marshalls, Hot Topic, Levi’s and Jordache. *I know there was more but I can’t remember names anymore of all the stores* But again, no luck. Nothing that fits. So I decided to search online and just see if they made slacks in my size. So I came across Dickies and Guess brands that looked like they might fit based on sizes and waist measurements (I have tried this before and it doesn’t mean they will fit). So finally this last weekend, my mom and I set out on a quest to the Woodburn Factory Stores to see if the Guess store there even carried my size.

Well I found some black slacks that are just a tad too big, but at least they don’t fall off my waist . So I of course bought 2 pairs, costing me about $60 total. This was a reasonable price after all I had been through. I will still have to get them altered but that shouldn’t be too much (hopefully).

So the breakdown for what it has cost me to get 2 pairs of black slacks so far is: $60 for the slacks themselves, plus 4 tanks of gas (25*4) $100, plus time spent looking {(4 Saturdays @ 6 hrs a day) 24 hours at my current wage of $16} $384; bringing the grand total to $544 for 2 pairs of slacks. This is ridiculous, if you ask me…

They have specialty shops for big and tall men, short and thin men, plus size women, maternity, children’s clothing, etc. But if you are a slender/petite short female you don’t get to shop everywhere for shorts, pants, jeans, skirts, etc.

*And yes I have tried children’s clothes, but they are too small or don’t have space for hips*

So after all this trouble is there any doubt why I am a female that despises shopping for herself?? I will put off to the last minute to do any shopping for myself, unless it is something that I already know where to go to get it.

That is enough ranting and raving, especially since this is my first post..